Editor’s note: Mary wrote this for our Overcome the Lie blog tour and I loved it so much, I knew it needed to be posted here! Negative talk is something so many of us struggle with. Lots of goodness this.
Last year, I battled against a nasty case of seasonal depression. I’m not sure if it was the long winter or postpartum hormones or both, but it was a pretty rough winter for me. Almost daily, I was fighting negative thoughts, feelings of despair or fear of the future. I didn’t used to like hearing that God was using bad things for good in my life, but He was. He was using my depression to teach me some new ways of living. He was using my daily fight against a negative disposition and despair to show me that I need to connect with Him daily.
By answering these questions at the end of the day, I have been able to better understand why I have felt down. These questions also help me to be more aware of how my choices and environment play a role in my daily thought life.
This winter I made the switch to listening to worship music ninety-five percent of the time. This was not an easy switch for me, as I am a little picky about what I listen to. It took a little effort to find plenty of worship music I enjoyed musically, but with a little input from some friends I was able to put together a sizable playlist. I love all genres of music and don’t plan on changing that part of my life long term but for this winter, the change was necessary. I needed to have myself pointed back to Him as often as possible during the day and since I listen to music at home a lot, this was an easy way to achieve that. Since I my emotions are easily influence by music, I also needed to be careful to avoid songs that were sad or self focused.